Update on Travis: They are feeding Travis Through his tubes and they had a proceedure done on him today to clean out any sepsis that had gotten into his body.
I went to take a nap today before I made dinner. I couldn’t sleep but I felt exhausted. I was tossing and turning and all I could think about was work and minimum wage and how am I going to start our life off when we both are hardly working 40 hours a week and making minimum wage. We can barely make rent on our one bedroom walk up.
So, I started breathing heavier and I couldn’t imagine what would happen if heaven forbid I get sick again like I did this summer, what happens when I have medicine that I need that will keep me alive? So I’m breathing heavier and I start thinking about how Travis got sick and Dana got sick, and what if Trent gets sick? And the anniversary of Dad’s death is coming, and so I got up and I ran downstairs.
I ran down the block and I kept running until my side hurt and I found myself on a street that looked unfamiliar and I had no clue where I was so I fell on the ground crying. Long deep sobs until I could finally breathe again. I cried until I felt right again. I cried until the world stopped moving and the earth and everything around me could dance around me. And I laid there.
I picked up my cell phone and called my husband. “Hey, honey.”
“Hey!” he says.
“I went for a run and I’m kind of lost.” I start to laugh and that makes him laugh too.
“Where are you I’ll come pick you up?”
Ten minutes later Trent was there and he was smiling, “How is it you could get lost after living here for almost half of your life now?”
“I just have no sense of navigation I suppose. ” I smile and get in the car.
Trent and I get home and Trent has put up the tombstones and added pumpkins to each one.
I go into Dana’s and she’s made dinner and Jenn has gotten Snow White and the Huntsmen. Life feels right again.